Throughout the winter season in Les Saisies, I wrote down some notes in various forms. They are mostly trivial, constructs of boredom, and whether they pass as ‘bloggable material’… i’ll leave that to you.
An empty store,
There’s nothing to do,
Except for stare at the walls.
Outside there are few,
And no attention is paid,
For those minds are fixed elsewhere.
And without work to be done..
What can I, the lonely Ski Man, actually do?
The winter snow storm has beaten us all;
The pistes lay empty,
The roads conquered by snow,
While bitter tourists rue the dashed dreams
and retreat to their chalets.
And I, the lonely Ski Man,
Sit here biding time sanguinely
And writes this poem to express..
Just how f***ing bored I am.
He had a dream.
He had many dreams actually.
To see, to hear, to smell. To feel.
He observed videos and pictures online.
He read many books.
He spoke to many people.
It was the beginning of an everlasting adventure.
He was a flower ready to bloom.
Clouds fill the sky,
The colour of grief.
Those otherwise boastful mountains,
Have become bashful,
Whilst they hide between deep stretches of fog.
She rains down like a determined soul,
Persistent in disrupting the life underneath.
For her skin is white and glorious,
But should she be disrespected,
Her heart will be black and vengeful.
I often fight with myself about the idea of home.
I’ve come to realise that it’s never going to be where I lived all my life.
Ok you can argue that it’s story and mine are forever intertwined,
But should the place you call home endure you a mountain of pain?
Is home really a place at all?
Wonder entrenches my thoughts now I have strayed away.
My brother called it ‘soul searching’.
Perhaps an expected & unsurprising buzz phrase.
Tell me this, does one find home whilst soul searching?
Or is the soul contaminated, poisoned, by the constructs of our day?
For me this is crucial.
I don’t believe in soul searching.
My soul is always here.
It’s the cleansing and the repairing that I believe is pivotal..
In finding my home.
(Note. I am ginger. And I do have a soul.)